.....here we go again...

Once again I find myself dealing with lack of time, and an abundance of words, images, thoughts, and ideas all compiled in my head. Journaling is something I enjoy greatly, when I do find those rare moments when I can dedicate time to it, and make myself sit still long enough to get it done. I think the very idea of someones "journal" almost seems mysterious to me, to be that little child that comes across a stack of them a long a bookshelf one day, rows and rows of them allowing you to somewhat be transported into the very mind of the writer as they pour out their life and inner most thoughts within the lines of the pages each day seems so cool to me. This will sound weird but I love taking my fingers and moving them across the pages, perhaps its the art nerd in me but I love the way the ink feels on the pages, the remnants of tear drops on certain pages, the dates and periods of life in which I felt as if I could go on, or just couldn't take anymore that life could throw at me. I like seeing the ups and downs that my life has taken, and the places where I can see gods hand and how he carried me out of the storm that I was in. I wish that I was more dedicated into making it a daily habit, that way it could be that story book tale for me but sometimes just as much as I crave to have time with just me and my journal, I often avoid it at all cost. Sometimes my mind is just consumed, its overwhelmed, overloaded and honestly burnt out. Those moments are the times when the very sight of my journal panics me. I fear sitting down with it because I am avoiding at all cost thinking about what is floating around in my head. This semester has been both physically, emotionally and mentally draining for me. Creatively I feel like I'm at my end but I just cant afford to stop, not in mid semester. I even broke down and bought another journal, same size and color as my other journal. This journal is what I use to write down my thoughts, in regards to future projects, current projects, ideas, questions even just opening it to write down ideas can be creatively draining as well.
In an attempt to think, create, visualize and again have some form of "project" mixing images and text I am once again.... "blogging" since it has been almost a year I figure why not give it one more shot.