Happy Thanksgiving!

Sometimes I find myself being reminded of the things that I do not have, but I need to be thankful for the things that I do have. I have so much and I need to take more time thanking God for it.
The holidays for me always are somewhat sad. They always seem to remind me that my parents are divorced. I get to spend the holidays on "divided time", and Thanksgiving and Christmas just don't feel the way that they once did. I will never forget the first Christmas my parents were divorced. I remember going to visit my Dad. I had to walk into the home that we all used to live in "as a family", I remember making up a reason to go to my room for a second and I remember crying. Crying because it was sad, crying because I could see how hurt my Dad, my heart was crushed just looking at him. I felt so sad for my Dad. I remember wiping the tears from my eyes and then going back into the living room trying to hide that I had ever been crying. Christmas that year was very quiet. Each year that passes they get a little better and I have learned to make different special memories with each of my parents in each of their own separate homes at different times. I don't know if I will ever be able to truly enjoy a holiday without thinking in my head about the other parent that I am not with at that time. I wish for one more time, one more Christmas with "my family", one more Thanksgiving with "my family". Just to enjoy it one last time, or to see how things would have been now that Samantha and I are older.
I am thankful for my family, although my parents are not together I am thankful they are alive and that they love me more than they love themselves. I am thankful for my friends, who have become my second family. I am thankful for the life lessons that I have learned over this past year. Thankful that I am finally letting go. I am thankful for my health, freedom, family, and most of all my salvation.

Happy Thanksgiving!!!

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